30 November 2013

Weekend Ass-signments.

Assalamualaikum ~

I already told you guys I will be a busy girl when the semester starts and I was definitely right. I'm currently Nana and Qila, working on our photography and illustration assignments together.

I'm already thinking about the final illustration project. My senses are tingling to make the storyboard already hahahahahaha. Partner aku Nana nanti. Insha-Allah aku akan try buat children's book yang bad-ass.

Semalam kitorang makan Domino's. Lepas makan kat parking lot TAL tu kitorang naik bentara. Berjoli lak kat atas tu. Best. Lama gila tak melepak dengan diorang macam tu. Rindu gila pun ada.

Adi, Ray, Haziq, Qila, Faiz, Nana, Daus. Maaf Qayyim, gambar kamu takde hahahahaha.

Pagi ni sebenarnya gebang je malam tadi nak gi lepak studio sampai petang gitu. Last-last sume tibai tidur sampai pukul 11.00 pagi. Padahal malam semalam sume tidur awal kot. Nana ngan Qila pun tidur bilik aku je. Bangun-bangun pegi lunch. Lepas tu start buat photoshoot untuk photography assignment. 

Ni pun baru je selesai photoshoot. Esok kitorang nak keluar pergi printing. Aku betul-betul ikat perut sem ni. Duit aku cepat sangat habis. Illustration marker pun aku tak beli lagi. Buku pun dah berapa ringgit aku pun taktau nak cakap apa dekat parents aku dah ni. 

 Ni model aku. Damn sexy. Hahahahahahaha. Kitorang kena start eksperimen dengan ISO and aperture. Aku guna Sony Alpha 3000. Supposedly yang recommended cameras hanyalah Nikon dan Canon tapi apakan daya, ni je aku ada. Takkan nak angkut lagi satu?? Duit PT pun dah habis weh.

Although this is my shot, this is Nana's model. Diorang semua pentiru aku. Aku buat patung, diorang pun nak buat patung gak. Qila amek ironman yang dapat dekat Tesco tu. Tapi dia kedekut kejap taknak bagi aku gambar ironman tu.

Tak pasal-pasal background rumah RS. 

Indoor shoot. Atas meja office pun boleh an. 

Aku busy sangat dengan midnight meetings and unfinished business untuk Tun Ali punya hiasan. Dah bertimpa. Sticky note kat laptop pun panjang dari atas sampai bawah kot. Sabar jelah. Aku yang menempah jawatan. Hopefully aku akan dapat siapkan semua benda secepat mungkin. Aku haraaaap sangat.

Aku nak kejar DL lagi sem ni. Aku masih tak puas hati dengan result aku. Aku malas nak bayar PT and I need to make my parents proud. 

Doakan kejayaan aku ~

22 November 2013

Life as a lucky chain.

Assalamualaikum ~

Motip ape Nad, motip?

Wajib memulakan entri dengan meletakkan selfie membangangkan diri. Iyolah, dah aku nak cerita pasal diri sendiri, maka gambar pun haruslah relevan, bukan??

Anyway, this post is mostly about my journey through my education years and how I survive in the high ranks in classes and school.

But before that, what is a lucky chain? (Please understand that this is my own definition and is not legit in any way possible, so don't use it in formal writings)
A lucky chain refers to someone who has their whole future platter in front of them and they never break this path anyhow no matter what they do, they will always become the one that people expect to excel in life.

I got this term because I've always paid attention to High School Musical and felt that I have something in common with Gabriella Montez.


Uhmmmm.....















*krik krik*
*krik krik*

Screw it, just read ahead.

1. Zaman baby-baby
Ini zaman aku hensem tahap gaban dengan rambut terpacak. Masa aku baby dulu, mama cite kat aku masa umur aku setahun jagung (tak, ni memang literally setahun) aku dah fluently count from one to ten in English. She said that was a very impressive thing so aku pun angguk-angguk je lah ye kan aje apa mama aku cakap. Honestly, aku pun taktau pada range umur berapa sebenarnya kanak-kanak boleh fluently buat apa yang aku buat. Aku tak pernah ada adik dan aku tak pernah jaga anak orang, so aku taktau. Aku ikutkan je cakap mak aku. Dah dia kata aku pandai, aku pun alhamdulillah kan je la.

Masa dekat Denver dulu, mama aku tak pernah ada masa nak mengajar aku properly sebab dia selalu busy babysit anak orang aside from jaga anak dia sendiri. She thought that she never had the time to give me proper early education. But when it comes to the time balik Malaysia, when I was like 4 years old, she decided that she needed to start teaching me how to read. So satu hari dia keluarkan buku suku kata (alah yang S-A = sa, T-U = tu, SATU tu an). Dia ajak la aku baca sekali. Lepas tu dia cakap aku kata "Saya taknak baca buku nilah!" And then dia tanyalah nak baca apa. Dia kata aku bangun pergi amek buku cerita tebal seinci (cerita dongeng yang di-Melayukan, buku tu mana tah dah hilang, last time aku ngadap buku tu pun dah rabak bagai) and then aku baca depan dia dengan muka selamba. She said she was shocked and that she was ashamed of how she did not know when and where did I develop my reading skills. Konklusinya, aku pun taktau aku ni belajar dari mana. Macam magic pun ada jugak tetibe tau sendiri. Toyol. Menakutkan aku ni.

2. Pre-school/kindergarten/TADIKA (call it what you want)
First time aku masuk Tadika KEMAS was when I was 5, and immediately my teachers made me the Penolong Ketua. They were impressed by my very many skills of fluent speaking, brave nerves, good at art and all that jazz. Although right now kau nampak aku macam havoc sebab berani menghadap crowd, aku sebenarnya sangat pemalu depan orang. Siyes cakap la, all I do now in front of people I just met is anguk-angguk to what they say and giving awkward laughs afterwards. Tapi when it comes to going up on stage, aku sentiasa menantikan benda ni. Hati aku kering, jenis boleh ajak main Truth or Dare sebab I'll do almost anything just to have fun. So yeah, I was an excellent little kid who waktu Hari Q (hari penyampaian hadiah) orang pun naik bosan tengok muka aku naik pentas. Nasyid aku, ulik mayang aku, story-telling aku, dancing pun aku, amek hadiah pun aku. Aku pun naik bosan main tukar-tukar baju. Masa aku umur 6 tahun pun cikgu amek aku jadi Ketua. Ikrar pun aku kena baca.

3. Sekolah rendah
This was a long 6-year-journey and I had always been in the first class and I had teachers everywhere who loved me. To cut to the chase, from Penolong to Ketua to Pengawas to Penolong Ketua Pengawas (yeah, I wasn't Ketua Pengawas itself which never really did make sense to me). I excelled perfectly and got 5A's for my UPSR. At one point, masa ada perjumpaan guru dan ibu bapa (the one where your parents come and sign your report card and ask teachers how you've been doing in class and kasi cikgu rotan kalau anak buat salah tu), my teacher asked my mom impressively, "Akak, Nadrah mesti kat rumah kerjanya belajaaaar je kan? Pandailah dia. Akak buat macam mana, eh?" Sumpah aku cakap time tu mak aku tergelak habis. Lepas tu dia kantoikan aku kat cikgu cakap aku duk umah manede belajar. Pemalas. Yep, dia guna perkataan tu. PEMALAS. See, mak aku sendiri mengaku aku pemalas. Wa cakap sama lu wa memang jenis tak faham erti belajar. Aku duk umak satu je masa kecik, melukis melukis melukis. Aku tak suka menyemakkan otak dengan study bagai, nak relaks, relaks je la. buat apa nak stress?? Sekolah rendah actually was my ultimate glory moment because I remember that I was a Doktor Muda and we competed in competition and organised our own quiz and all the things that totally helped me stand out. Although I got my first C on my Science exam during Darjah 5. I did, and I was shocked. I never got anything below B. On the last penyampaian hadiah during Darjah 6, I got the award for Tokoh Akademik Terbaik throughout my whole school years though.

4. Sekolah menengah (Form 1-3)
This was actually where my weakness started to show itself. Although I was in the same top class three years in a row, I was on a downward spiral. People from different places and school come to invade this one school and my class had a bunch of smart ass people, and I just wasn't one of them hardworking people. I don't like to studyyyy!! When I was in Form 1, I got my first E because I failed my Sejarah. Sejarah was complete and utter bullshit to me. What's the point belajar pasal orang dah mati? Dahlaa buku teks sekepuk. Ingat aku ada hati agaknya nak baca. Pastu tambah pulak Math dah start buat algebra. Masuk pulak alphabet dalam nombor. Ahh, memang tak ah!! My two best friends had to help me go through three difficult years of Math (sebab I really hate Math) and time ni aku memang ligat meniru masa exam. Result aku pun macam cibai gak. Time ni start la jatuh nombor 7, 9, 10 dalam kelas. Yelah, orang dah biasa dapat nombor 1, 2, 3 tetibe jatuh bagai memang down terus la kan. Nombor paling teruk pernah aku dapat was 27. Cibai. Tapi time PMR, alhamdulillah I got 7A's. Tapi sejak zaman aku, 7A dah takde nilai. Kurang satu A je padahal tapi orang dah tak pandang.

5. Sekolah menengah (Form 4-5)
Disebabkan aku berjaya dalam PMR, my parents sent me to boarding school walaupun aku taknak. Aku dapat course Mechanical Engineering. Puihh! Tak minat langsung pastu kena paksa. Tapi time ni aku dah top balik. Walaupun bukan antara excellent students, aku tetap antara yang intimidating sampaikan excellent students pun rasa tercabar. Lepas tu ada pulak perkara paling ajaib berlaku. Sejarah aku sume atas 90. I sh*t you not, aku jatuh cinta dengan Sejarah. I'm serious. Bila evaluate balik, Sejarah was the best subject to handle in school sebab senang gila kot Sejarah ni. And my Modern Math was just as bad during Form 4 until Percubaan SPM, I got D and E oftenly. But during the final study week, I managed to pull it together and bila aku belajar betul-betul, aku sedar yang Math Mod senang gila tahap cipan je rupanya. Aku dapat A- masa SPM. Tapi Add Math aku memang cantik. Dari awal sampai akhir sekolah Add Math aku G. SPM aku Add Math pun G wehh. Sumpah tak memain. But I got 6A's for my SPM, including the subject for Mechanical Engineering eventhough I was not interested in it. Siapa budak Mechi silalah jangan main-main sebab dekat sekolah, Mechi la subjek kejuruteraan yang paling senang. All in while, I kept myself busy with extra curricular such as debate team and become Ketua Kamar (ketua dorm, whatever sekolah korang panggil) and such.

P/S: Believe it or not, during final study week, I was still busy working on doodles and throughout half the year, I literally kept my MP3 Player stuck to my ears even in class waktu cikgu tengah mengajar. I didn't give a single crap about anything and I scared my friends because they think I'm friggin abnormal.

6. Currently running: University life
Sebenarnya aku rasa aku tak layak cerita pasal U sebab aku pun baru je lepas satu semester. Pedehal nye tetibe nak cakap pasal U an. Mentah lagi nak cite tapi takpelah aku cite la jugak sikit-sikit. So, aku amek graphic, under UiTM. Aku kat Kampus Alor Gajah, tempat yang paling aku sayang atas muka bumi ni. At first, I was struggling with this course and I still am. Kalau rajin, read my previous entries to see how I've been facing my university life at Lendu tersayang. Somehow, I managed to overcome it and got 3.61 on my first sem. I got Dean's List. Alhamdulillah. But for the upcoming semester, I'll be venturing into more college activities as I was selected to be a JPK and I'd have to struggle harder for the difficult subjects and face more endless, sleepless nights. I'll try hard not to break this path and insha-Allah, I'll make sure to get 3.5 and above until I graduate.

Wish me luck, and I'll probably give a little tips later on how to stay excellent without burdening your mind and brain. 

18 November 2013

I am deifinitely blessed.

Assalamualaikum ~

I feel like I haven't typed in a while and it has become and addiction for me. I just love how fast I can go with the keyboard and just having these ideas and stories flowing through my head.

Okay, so semester two is coming up so expect me to be updating a lot after this. I'm not those kind of people who leave they're blog when they're busy because the more I have to experience, the more I have to write about.

Anyway, I'd like to write about how I'm feeling blessed lately.

Last week, I worked at the Istiadat Konvokesyen of UiTM Kampus Alor Gajah with a bunch of other people. Here they are:

That's me in the back, wearing the brown tudung and smiling awkwardly :D

Most of the people in this photo use phones that are mostly out of my league. I mean, not that I really can't afford those phones at all, I just can't afford them NOW. While working, they kinda asked me how much I got for my previous final exam. As I have posted before, I got Dean's List. And so these kind of questions popped out of their mouths:

"Nadrah tak minat iPhone ke?"
"Ayah bagi apa dapat Dekan?"
"Nadrah tak mintak iPhone ke?"

Aiii, those were really hard to answer. Let's get things straight. My current phone is Sony Xperia tipo. Yeah, I know I know. It's small and kinda lame.

And they totally made me kinda feel ashamed hanging out with them cuz three of them use iPhones and one Samsung and one Blackberry. It's not that I feel bad about using Sony, I mean, if I'd have a ton of money right now I'd definitely take an Xperia Z1. I love Sony very much as a matter of fact.

And I reached my limit yesterday. I cried under the sheets in my room because I did ask my parents for a new phone but all they said was this thing can wait. You have to understand that I'm not a spoiled child. I've never demanded anything from my parents and never have I done it straight to their faces. But this time I did. And when I heard their answers, I felt devastated and very very disappointed. Mostly because people kinda set my mind that I deserve better things due to my excellent results and hardwork. Ever since I was a kid, I was a lucky chain. I'm one of those people who don't need to study much but I still end up excelling my exams and I'm so grateful for that. So, that kinda made me think that I deserve more.

Mostly, I get this feeling when I try to take photos of my artwork in my sketch book. Looking at the quality of the photos just makes me feel like I wanna smash my phone into pieces. I'm a photography lover. And yes, I do not own a DLSR. I have passions for many things but somehow I just can't fulfill them like other people. 

So I think it's very unfair for kids nowadays who are spoiled by their parents with expensive stuff and gadgets even though they have bad attitude and they don't excel in school. I just don't think the deserve this "reward" given by their parents.

Until today. I got a few things that made my day.


I got new toys! Prettyy little black BIJOUE headphones and a new Wacom Intous Pen. If you had been reading my blog before, you'd know that I've been wanting a BIJOUE headphone since the start of the first semester because my best friend at college has one in baby pink. I've been searching all over for them and I found it right in the store where I bout my Wacom :D :D :D

Looking at how expensive these two costed, I now understand that you might not always get what you want, but you'll get what you need.

I shouldn't demand so much, because Allah has blessed me with many things. I'm no longer a broken girl, I've found my true friends, I've much better things now and my life is going according to His plan perfectly.

But I still want a new phone though.

Hahahahahahahahahahah.

On a side note, I'm addicted to Yuna's new song: Rescue and I've declared to myself that that is currently my very own theme song ahaha :)

14 November 2013

150 Random Questions.

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?
Damn, I really can't remember.
2. Are you outgoing or shy?
I'm shy around those I'm not close to but extremely outgoing with my friends.
3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?
My college friends for next semester.
4. Are you easy to get along with?
No. You'd have to break through my shell first.
5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?
Idk haha.
6. What kind of people are you attracted to?
Talkative, funny and charming people.
7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?
No.
8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?
My crush, I won't say his name.
9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?
No, I'm very open.
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Firdaus Zulfaa, my good friend from college.
11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?
"Haha."
12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
High Highs - Open Season
Birthday Cake - Rihanna
The Keeper - Kina Grannis & Marie Digby
Can't Hold Us - Macklemore & Ryan Lewis
Rock Me - One Direction
13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?
If it's the opposite gender, then yes.
14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?
I do.
15. What good thing happened this summer?
Summer? I'd take it as my sem break. Nothing really.
16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
NO.
17. Do you think there is life on other planets?
No.
18. Do you still talk to your first crush?
Seldom.
19. Do you like bubble baths?
Yes, very much.
20. Do you like your neighbors?
Nope, they're not that friendly.
21. What are you bad habits?
Random body parts will start moving if I listen to music.
22. Where would you like to travel?
I still don't know.
23. Do you have trust issues?
Yes.
24. Favorite part of your daily routine?
Texting my college friends.
25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?
Hips.
26. What do you do when you wake up?
Go straight to shower.
27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?
Lighter.
28. Who are you most comfortable around?
My college friends and my sister.
29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?
I only have one ex and no.
30. Do you ever want to get married?
Absolutely.
31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?
Yes.
32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?
Selena Gomez hahahahahahaha.
33. Spell your name with your chin.
Nadfrdash.
34. Do you play sports? What sports?
Archery, bowling and swimming.
35. Would you rather live without TV or music?
TV.
36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?
YES.
37. What do you say during awkward silences?
It's silence, what do you expect me to say when it's silence?
38. Describe your dream girl/guy?
Just someone with a really good heart and will love me unconditionally.
39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?
Anywhere with clothes below RM50.
40. What do you want to do after high school?
College.
41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Depends on what they did to screw up the first one.
42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?
I'm angry, tired or bored or thinking.
43. Do you smile at strangers?
Sometimes.
44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?
Outer space.
45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?
Shower. I love to shower.
46. What are you paranoid about?
Ghosts and darkness.
47. Have you ever been high?
No.
48. Have you ever been drunk?
No.
49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?
Yes.
50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
Yellow.
51. Ever wished you were someone else?
No.
52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?
My skin. Lighter and without zits.
53. Favourite makeup brand?
Not interested with makeup.
54. Favourite store?
Nothing in particular.
55. Favourite blog?
Mine, haha.
56. Favourite colour?
Black.
57. Favourite food?
Anything according to my cravings and mood.
58. Last thing you ate?
Fried rice.
59. First thing you ate this morning?
Coconut rice.
60. Ever won a competition? For what?
Too many. Too lazy to list them down.
61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?
Never.
62. Been arrested? For what?
Never.
63. Ever been in love?
Yes.
64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?
Yeah, right.
65. Are you hungry right now?
For cheese fries.
66. Do you like your Blogger friends more than your real friends?
No, I don't really have Blogger friends.
67. Facebook or Twitter?
Twitter.
68. Twitter or Youtube?
Youtube.
69. Are you watching tv right now?
No.
70. Names of your bestfriends?
There are a bunch of people I consider as bestfriends so idk how many I should list down.
71. Craving something? What?
CHEESE FRIES.
72. What colour are your towels?
Blue and purple.
72. How many pillows do you sleep with?
Two.
73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Yes.
74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?
One.
75. Favourite animal?
Cat.
76. What colour is your hair?
Dark brown.
77. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate.
78. Favourite ice cream flavour?
Vanilla.
79. What colour shirt are you wearing?
Black.
80. What colour pants?
Brown.
81. Favourite tv show?
How I Met Your Mother.
82. Favourite movie?
Tooooo many!
83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2?
Easy, Mean Girls.
84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street?
Mean Girls.
85. Favourite character from Mean Girls?
Regina George.
86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?
Nemo.
87. First person you talked to today?
My dad.
88. Last person you talked to today?
My sister.
89. Name a person you hate?
My ex.
90. Name a person you love?
Awww, must I mention him? Haha.
91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?
My ex.
92. In a fight with someone?
No, actually.
93. How many sweatpants do you have?
One.
94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?
Two.
95. Last movie you watched?
Thor.
96. Favourite actress?
This is a tough question.
97. Favourite actor?
Johnny Depp.
98. Do you tan a lot?
No.
99. Have any pets?
Yes, cats.
100. How are you feeling?
Neutral.
101. Do you type fast?
Very fast.
102. Do you regret anything from your past?
Yes, knowing my ex/ex-bestfriend.
103. Can you spell well?
Yes.
104. Do you miss anyone from your past?
My best friend, Farid Fathurrahman.
105. Ever been to a bonfire party?
No but I would love to.
106. Ever broken someone’s heart?
No.
107. Have you ever been on a horse?
Yes.
108. What should you be doing?
Designing charts for my college.
109. Is something irritating you right now?
The fact that I can't get cheese fries.
110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?
Yes, and it's still going on now.
111. Do you have trust issues?
I've answered this before and yes.
112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
My roommates.
113. What was your childhood nickname?
Nadrah.
114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?
Yes.
115. Do you play the Wii?
No.
116. Are you listening to music right now?
No.
117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?
No.
118. Do you like Chinese food?
No.
119. Favourite book?
When You Were Mine by Rebecca Serle.
120. Are you afraid of the dark?
Very much.
121. Are you mean?
Only to those who I think are rude.
122. Is cheating ever okay?
NO.
123. Can you keep white shoes clean?
No.
124. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yes.
125. Do you believe in true love?
Yes.
126. Are you currently bored?
Yes.
127. What makes you happy?
My college friends.
128. Would you change your name?
No.
129. What is your zodiac sign?
Aquarius.
130. Do you like subway?
Not that much.
131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Learn to like him back because I think it's cute to fall in love with your bestfriend.
132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Already answered this.
133. Favourite lyrics right now?
"It is really all in your mind." - High Highs, Open Season
134. Can you count to one million?
No, too boring.
135. Dumbest lie you ever told?
I don't know.
136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?
Closed.
137. How tall are you?
157cm.
138. Curly or Straight hair?
Straight.
139. Brunette or Blonde?
Brunette.
140. Summer or Winter?
Winter.
141. Night or Day?
Night.
142. Favourite month?
February.
143. Are you a vegetarian?
No.
144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?
Milk Chocolate.
145. Tea or Coffee?
Tea.
146. Was today a good day?
It was fine.
147. Mars or Snickers?
Mars.
148. What’s your favourite quote?
None.
149. Do you believe in ghosts?
I don't really know.
150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?
Agriculture.