29 January 2013

Opinionated 1: Art Block

It's a difficult time for people who do art, staring at a blank page of paper with a pencil in hand but nothing in mind. It''s frustrating and quite depressing. It's like you want to squeeze something out of your mind so hard that it hurts to actually stare at the paper. Finally, we give up and go on with our lives and just wait for something to come up later.

Art block is attacking me so often now. I have a RM25 bulky yet so empty sketch book. It's frustrating how I can't fill it up. It has 400 pages, I think. Both me and my sister have one each. At least she filled up 10 pages, I'm only down to one page.

I miss doing art.

Stories of People 2: Ntasha Lee

Have you guys ever stumble upon a person who is very much similar to yourself in many ways. Well, I have. This post is dedicated to her.

Natasha Razali or Ntasha Lee is just an ordinary girl, born on the 20th October 1996. I met her at school and she was a junior of mine. The first time she entered the dorm room, my eyes were already attached to her. I admit that I have a girl crush for my own junior but what the heck.


The similarity between us started when she finished unpacking her stuff, all the juniors were sitting awkwardly on the floor while the seniors stared at them. She was about to take a sip of water when I suddenly yelled "Adik! Botol adik sama macam akak punya!" which translates to "Your bottle is similar to mine!". She then smiled awkwardly at me, probably thinking "This senior is so weird". Then things started to get weird throughout the whole year. These are some similarities that I have found between us.
  1. The bottle incident, only the lids were different
  2. She wears specs (big deal), I'm practically blind
  3. Her name starts with 'N', Natasha vs. Nadrah
  4. She plays bowling, we ended up in the school bowling competition together
  5. Found out she loves archery, archery is one of my top skills
  6. She loves Kristen Stewart, I'm all over KStew
  7. She hearts Paramore, my favorite band ever
  8. Same phone case
  9. She picked up a can of latte just as I was about to
  10. She loves fashion just as much as I do
  11. She loves photography, I'm a natural at it
  12. There are many more probably, I can't remember, I'm not a stalker
I love this girl very much, as a junior. I'm just that awkward and shy to admit it. I'm glad to have met this girl.

Little Things 4: Sitting in a Bookstore

I went to KLCC last month and I was excited about going to Kinokuniya. Mostly because there are so many books to enjoy. I thought there wouldn't be that many people who would want to spend time in a bookstore, because it's Malaysia. Face it, many people don't have book shelves in their houses in this country.


I was amazed by the number of people who come there and read on the floor. So I joined them, reading books about cats.

There's something about bookstores that makes me feel safe and calm.

Little Things 3: Mornings


I am pretty much an early riser unless I decide to sleep in late. As long as my alarm clock or the nature of my mother's voice goes off, I'll jump out of bed even if it's a holiday.

I just love the endless possibilities you can experience until the clock strikes noon. My spirit usually rises up from 7 to 12.00 o'clock. Waking up to early sunrise makes you feel like doing a lot of things.

  1. Showering
  2. Exercising
  3. Gardening
  4. Drinking coffee
  5. Cooking
  6. Reading
  7. Drawing
  8. Singing
  9. Dancing
  10. You name it

Even if I don't end up doing these things, they still bring me warmth inside because I know that I am one of those fortunate people who wake up to endless possibilities in a safe environment.

Little Things 2: Cats

Cats are my favorite animal in the whole wide world. Our parents weren't really fond of us keeping them as pets. But when I was in primary school, we found a beautiful street cat with a duo-colored face. Half of his face was black while the other half was white so we named him Phantom, taken due to his similarity to the Phantom of the Opera. A few months with him, we found Blackie who was stuck in the horrid long grass next door and took him in. But both went missing after almost a year.

I love Maru.

By now, we have adopted more than 50 cats. Most of them died due to natural causes but some went missing. The eldest in the whole family tree are two cute female felines called Meme and Momo. Momo just recently gave birth to two kittens, mind you she's had about 10 pregnancies before. We currently share a house with 12 cats and kittens.

I went to Kinokuniya a month ago and found Maru's book, I Am Maru. Unfortunately, it costed RM50.00-ish. I couldn't even read it because all of them were finely sealed. Maybe one day I will.

Love your animals. 

Little Things 1: Reading

My mom and dad bought us siblings a bunch of Peter and Jane books. I guess I've started to learn my English from there; aside from watching a lot of Barney & Friends. Enjoy more childhood photos.


I looked like a boy :D

Little Stories 1: America

America had been quite life-changing even though I was there as a little kid. The environment, the friends we made, the games we play, the food we ate are much different from what there is here in Malaysia.

Some people thought I was born in America; that I was American. I would've been lucky though if my family had moved earlier. It'll be fun to be born American. The whole family moved to America for only two and a 
half years. But the memories are just too good to forget.


Description based on pictures:
  1. Our second (I think) Aidilfitri. My mom made matching outfits for me and my elder sister.
  2. Wearing a head-to-toe denim outfit (this was the coolest) in front of Houshang Gallery with my eldest sister.
  3. In one of our houses. My sister holding a bag of cheese while I dig into the cookies.
  4. My sister is pink kebaya at a school programme which theme was culture. I never got the chance to go to school though.
  5. Our parents were enthusiastic about taking photos of us everywhere. Front door of one of our houses, Denver, Colorado.
We had a splendid time in the US. I still remember this huge mall with gigantic breakfast food replicas in the middle of it. The replicas weren't even moving but somehow it seemed very cool. Imagine sitting in a bowl of breakfast cereals with huge berries next to you.

Halloween was one of the best times. My eldest sister was dressed as a princess (she had a tiara too), my brother as a vampire, my elder sister as a ballerina and me as my most favorite mythical creature in the world, a witch. Even my dress had witches on it. It was black and orange, very Halloween-ish. 

Going to Candylicious in KLCC reminded me of the candies we once ate. I went there and bought a bag of candies we had in the US. The Pacifier, Twizzlers, the Dog Bones, Jawbreakers, Ding Bats, a gummy vampire teeth and also Swedish Fish. Amazing stuff.

We practically have two boxes full of pictures from America and about five huge photo albums. 

America is amazing.