31 July 2015

100 questions tag.

Assalamualaikum ~

Hiii, I'm feeling bored, and I feel like writing but I don't want to write about the things that upset me so I figured I should do a 100 question tag instead.

  1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. Well apparently, the book nearest to me is 999 Logo Design Components by Daniel Donnelly so there are more graphics than words in them but the fourth line of the description in the page would be "TARGET AUDIENCE: Broadcast and production companies and advertising agencies."
  2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch? My guy friend's vapour.
  3. Before you started this survey, what were you doing? Listening to some trap music.
  4. What is the last thing you watched on TV? Something about Hari Raya because it's still the festive season.
  5. Without looking, guess what time it is. 7.45 p.m *loud gasp* I guessed one minute early but I did it!!
  6. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? It was 7.44 when I guessed it.
  7. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? Car noises from the studio I am in.
  8. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? Just now, I had dinner with my parents.
  9. Did you dream last night? I did.
  10. Do you remember your dreams? Depends on how intense the dreams were but I personally hate dreaming whether it's a good dream or a nightmare, I'd rather have a blank deep sleep.
  11. When did you last laugh? Just now.
  12. Do you remember why / at what? My friend is suddenly craving for meatballs.
  13. What is on the walls of the room you are in? A lot of murals and vandalisms.
  14. Seen anything weird lately? Yes, but I can't tell.
  15. What do you think of this quiz? It's a simple, answerable one.
  16. What is the last film you saw? Ant-Man, in the theatre.
  17. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? I'd say somewhere with a beautiful beach view or perhaps a deep city like New York, either one.
  18. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? A new phone, a matte black Lamborghini Aventador, a grey Nissan Skyline R35, a house, and I'll ask anyone else what they would like and I'll buy anything for them too.
  19. Tell me something about you that most people don't know. I'm believe that I'm actually a really girly girl, like I really like girly stuff, I just don't own them or flaunt them or use them.
  20. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? I wish everyone lived equally, maybe not lavishly, but at least everyone would have enough food to feed each human on earth.
  21. Do you like to dance? I LOVE to dance although I'm no good at it.
  22. Would you ever consider living abroad? I have considered living abroad a lot of times already but I just don't know if I have enough guts to do so.
  23. Does your name make any interesting anagrams? Not at all.
  24. Who made the last incoming call on your phone? My brother.
  25. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer? A pretty photo of Ariana Grande.
  26. Last time you swam in a pool? Three months ago.
  27. Type of music you like most? I have a mixed genre but trap songs and hip hop conquers my playlist.
  28. Type of music you dislike most? Hard metal and screamos.
  29. Are you listening to music right now? Yesss, people who know me well know that my earphones are plugged in 80% of the time.
  30. What color is your bedroom carpet? I don't have a carpet in my bedroom.
  31. If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do? Everything, literally EVERYTHING.
  32. What was the last thing you bought? Food.
  33. Have you ever ridden on a motorbike? Yes,
  34. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? It's definitely on my bucketlist.
  35. Do you have a garden? No.
  36. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? Yes.
  37. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? The person I love.
  38. If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be? YouTuber Troye Sivan.
  39. Who sent the last text message you received? My sister.
  40. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Definitely H&M.
  41. What time is bed time? When I feel like it but it's definitely out of the norm.
  42. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? No.
  43. How many tattoos do you have? None.
  44. If you don't have any, have you ever thought of getting one? If it wasn't against my religion, I probably would have by now.
  45. What did you do for your last birthday? I got surprised twice for my birthday this year.
  46. Do you carry a donor card? I don't.
  47. Who was the last person you ate dinner with? My classmates.
  48. Is the glass half empty or half full? Depends on the person looking at it.
  49. What's the farthest-away place you've been? The States.
  50. When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato? Probably not once in my life.
  51. Have you ever won a trophy? I've won several.
  52. Are you a good cook? I'm actually a really bad cook.
  53. Do you know how to pump your own gas? Yes.
  54. If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be? As of right now, the person I have feelings for.
  55. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school? Yes, For 12 years of my life.
  56. Do you touch-type? Yes.
  57. What's under your bed? Empty baskets.
  58. Do you believe in love at first sight? No, at least not for me.
  59. Think fast, what do you like right now? Troye Sivan's YouTube videos (I just recently got hooked again).
  60. Where were you on Valentine's day? Home.
  61. What time do you get up? Depends on what time I sleep. I don't sleep throughout the night sometimes so after Fajr, I'd probably sleep until noon unless there's class, then I'll be waking up at 7.35 a.m.
  62. What was the name of your first pet? Phantom and Blackie.
  63. Who is the second to last person to call you? My mom.
  64. Is there anything going on this weekend? Yes, I'm probably going to Shah Alam for open houses and I have my MUET tests tomorrow.
  65. How are you feeling right now? Content with my newly-found freedom.
  66. What do you think about the most? How to keep myself busy and what song is there to listen to next.
  67. What time do you get up in the morning? Depends on the time I slept. But I'd say 6.00 a.m.
  68. If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people? I won't wait that long, I'd probably straight up call someone to tell the news.
  69. Who would you tell first? Probably my sister.
  70. What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema? Ant-Man.
  71. Do you sing in the shower? All. The. Time.
  72. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Ughhh, I hate repeated questions.
  73. What do you do most when you are bored? Listen to music and sing along.
  74. What do you do for a living? I'm still studying.
  75. Do you love your job? As a student? I'm enjoying it half the time I guess.
  76. What did you want to be when you grew up? I started off thinking I would be an astronomer but now that I grew up, I'm aiming to be an art lecturer or someone who works in the industry, a graphic designer basically.
  77. If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be? A very famous graphic designer.
  78. Which came first the chicken or the egg? LOL I actually hate this question but I'd say the chicken.
  79. How many keys on your key ring? Two.
  80. Where would you retire to? I haven't thought of this yet.
  81. What kind of car do you drive? Depends on what car people lend me but mostly sedans and MPVs.
  82. What are your best physical features? My big eyes and mega long eyelashes.
  83. What are your best characteristics? I always lend a hand to people.
  84. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go? Somewhere with a clear blue ocean.
  85. What kind of books do you like to read? I used to read Malay novels when I was young, I read a few English novels but I really am not a reader at all.
  86. Where would you want to retire to? Next question please.
  87. What is your favorite time of the day? Between 3 a.m and 5.00 a.m.
  88. Where did you grow up? My hometown, Melaka.
  89. How far away from your birthplace do you live now? I'm like.....here.
  90. What are you reading now? Nothing in particular.
  91. Are you a morning person or a night owl? BOTH, and I really love that about me.
  92. Can you touch your nose with your tongue? Nope.
  93. Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows? Yes.
  94. Do you have pets? I do, cats cats and more cats.
  95. How many rings before you answer the phone? I used to pick up in a flash but really, it depends on who's calling.
  96. What is your best childhood memory? I liked the trips I took when I was in primary school.
  97. What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life? I've been working a lot at different types of places so I'm kind of lazy to list them down.
  98. Any new and exciting things that you would like to share? Nope.
  99. What is most important in life? Myself, I guess. Pleasing my own feelings.
  100. What inspires you? Mostly, the person I have feeling for but a lot of things inspire me.

30 July 2015

Shut up or die.

Assalamualaikum ~

No, you can't say that because it will hurt other people.
No, you can't retweet that, it will cause pain for others.
No, you can't do that, you will make other people angry.
No, you can't think that, it will make other people upset.
No, you can't be you because being you causes the world to go bad.

Yes, restricted. I am restricted from being me. No part of me will ever satisfy the people around me. The things I do will never be good enough.

If everything I do, even if I think about other people before I do it, will still hurt people. So let's just pretend:

My mouth is sewn shut.
My hands are tied up.
My mind is locked away.

Yes, let's do that. Because apparently I just hurt people. That's just what I do. I'll shut myself down if that's really the only thing that will satisfy others. So don't question me after this, to fall back into the person I was before.

Mati pun sesorang dalam kubur. Hadap Tuhan pun sensorang kat akhirat.