17 April 2014

100 Questions.

Assalamualaikum ~

This is very random so yep.

1) Whats your name?
Read my URL.

2) How old are you?
19 this year.

3) Whats your birthday?
On the 9th of February.

4) What starsign does that make it?

5) Whats your favourite colour?
I have too many favorite colours but I'll go with white.

6) Whats your lucky number?
I don't have one.

7) Do you have any pets?
I have cats.

8) Where are you from?

9) How tall are you?
I haven't measured since high school, dah lama kot but here's a wild guess: 158cm.

10) What shoe size are you?
8 or 9.

11) How many pairs of shoes do you own?
I'd say 4.

12) If you were prime minister/ruler of the world what laws would you make?
I'd probably stop all alcohol/cigarettes production and stop all the clubs/wild parties that are happening in my country.

13) If you were a super hero what powers would you have?
I want to be invisible.

14) And what would your hero name be?
Wow, I've never thought of this. Umm, for no apparent reason I'd like to stick with the nickname my friends gave me; Tangan Robot eventhough sangat tak relevant.

15) And what outfit would you wear?
Tak, serious aku taktau.

16) What was your last dream about?
Of my guy best friend. I told him about this and he claimed that aku rindu dia.

17) What would you do if you fall into a great deal of money?
Aku tanak hipokrit, of course aku akan derma sikit then give some to my mom pergi haji. But also nak shopping. Teruk, yes I know.

18) Would you like to build/design your own house?
Probably not. But I'd love my house to be creatively designed though.

19) Which form of public transport do you prefer?
This is agak pelik but I love buses. I really love travelling at night in a bus. But only if bus tak penuh dan sesak and bus express only.

20) What talents do you have?
I have many but the one that shows the most is being extremely neat when it comes to my art. Thus, the nickname "Tangan Robot".

21) Can you juggle?

22) Can you solve a rubix cube?
Hahahahahahahahaha no.

23) Do you have a cherished childhood teddy bear?
Nope, I do have a teddy bear though. My ex gave it to me and even though aku dah bakar semua harta milik dia yang dia bagi I still keep this one sebab it's too cute, tak sampai hati nak bakar. And nope, I'm not attached to the sentimental feeling it once gave me. Sume tu bullcrap.

24) Are you psychic in any way?

25) Are you a good dancer?
I'm actually a bad dancer but I love to do it anyways.

26) Are you a good singer?
I sing badly but I also sing loudly.

27) Are you a good cook?
Eheh eheh eheh no.

28) Are you a good artist?
My expertise is doodling but I can also paint so I'd say yeah, maybe.

29) Are you a good listener?
I am but I judge a lot.

30) Are you a good public speaker?
Yes, I am.

31) Are you a good babysitter?
Tak pernah seumur hidup aku jaga anak orang. Orang jaga aku adala so no.

32) Are you a good mechanic?
I don't own a car and I've never cared about car maintenance before maka tidaklah.

33) Are you a good sibling?
I probably am not because I'm the lazy ass person in the house.

34) Are you a good employee?
Tak. Kerja. Lagi. Pernah kerja dulu, it went fine I guess so entahlah, Taktau nak cakap.

35) Are you a good dresser?
I try my best, I love to dress up and look pretty but I guess yep sometimes I am.

36) Are you a good swimmer?

37) Are you a good skier?
Never have skied in my entire life. Main sled pernah la.

38) Are you a good lover?
I don't know, ask my non-existent boyfriend.
 39) Are you a good musician?
I don't play. I have a guitar but I never took the chance to learn.

40) Are you a good comedian?
Only when I'm being sarcastic and I'm with my sister and/or close friends.

41) Are you a good cleaner?

42) Are you a good actor?
I suppose I am. I love acting.

43) Are you a good writer?
Yes, I am.

44) Have you ever been bungee jumping?
Nope and I don't think I plan to.

45) Have you ever been canoeing/kayaking?

46) What types of holidays do you prefer?
Nothing in particular. I don't really like taking breaks.

47) Whats the furthest you've ever been on holiday?
To Pulau Tioman I guess. That was a great holiday.

48) What was your favourite holiday?
The Pulau Tioman one.

49) Where would your dream holiday be?
Probably New York. Or Bali, at the beach.

50) Can you tap dance?

51) What's your favourite zoo animal?

52) What's your favourite sport?

53) What's your favourite food?
Nasi, Simple as that. Sehari tak makan nasi I go nuts.

54) What's your favourite pizza topping?
I love plain cheese but sometimes I go with beef pep.

55) What's your favourite film?
As a movie junkie, I have no idea how to answer this.

56) What's your favourite song?
I don't think this is possible enough to answer. So I'll just list the songs that I have in my playlist in no particular order.

Tourist - Yuna
Open Season - High Highs
Rock Me - One Direction
Enchanted - Taylor Swift
In Your Arms - Kina Grannis
If I Lose Myself - One Republic
Planes - Yuna
Loud Noises - Yuna
Moonshine - Bruno Mars
Arjuna Beta - Fynn Jamal
Team - Lorde
Sunburn - Owl City
Hate To See Your Heart Break - Paramore
Love Will Remember - Selena Gomez
Treacherous - Taylor Swift
Can We Dance - The Vamps
Colors - Yuna
Mountains - Yuna

57) Whats your favourite drink?
Sirap limau or that warm lemon tea from Secret Recipe.

58) What's your favourite desserts?
I love cake very much.

59) What's your favourite TV program?
How I Met Your Mother which in my opinion ended stupidly and kinda wasted my nine years of watching it but I'd still say it's my favorite.

60) Whats your favourite boyband?
I don't have one.

61) What's your favourite girl group?
Really, I prefer solos.

62) What would be your ideal partner?
Someone who just accepts me the way I am and is infatuated by my existence just the way I would be by his.
 63) Do you want children?

64) Do you want a proper wedding?
Of course, but a simple one. Aku tak minat bersanding bagai.

65) Are you religious?
Tidak. I'd have to admit.

66) Do you like reality TV programs?
I hate them.

67) Do you like TV talent shows?
Absolutely not.

68) If you were gay who would your life partner be?
Selena Gomez, I ain't kidding.

69) If you could go back in time to change one thing what would it be?
My biggest mistake in the past.

70) How many hats do you own?
I don't.

71) Are you any good at pool?

72) Whats the highest you've ever jumped into the water from?
I guess only from water slides.

73) Have you ever been admitted to hospital?
I've never actually stayed in a hospital, just frequent short visits due to asthma

74) Whats your favourite milkshake flavour?

75) Whats your favourite swear word?

I say "fuck" a lot. But I tend to say "sial" if I'm speaking in Malay.

76) If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?

I want flawless skin.

77) Have you ever been to Legoland?

No but I plan to someday.

78) How often do you buy new clothes?
Often enough to disappoint my bank account.

79) Have you ever played a practical joke on anyone?

Loads of times.

80) Whats the last thing you drew a picture of?
A chibi of Qayyim.

81) Do you hold grudges?

I don't. I just get really angru but in the end I just move on.

82) Do you prefer baths or showers?


83) Do you prefer blue or black inked pens?
Definitely black.

84) Have you ever built a snowman?


85) What was the last book you read?
Cinta Aku dan Dia by Siti Rosmizah. The ever favorite Malay novel.

86) Do you know CPR?

Luckily, I do. Perks of masuk PBSM dekat UiTM.

87) What colour socks are you wearing?

I'm not wearing a pair now but my favorite pair is my knee-high dark blue and white striped socks.

88) If you could live anywhere, where would that be?
I don't know actually but I've always imagined my house to be somewhere soothingly cold with lots of flowers and the smell of coffee and dew in the morning.

Pretty much macam ni.

89) Have you ever had a surprise party? (that was an actual surprise)
Yes, I have. This year. Thanks to my beloved Eminerds and my family.

90) Do you prefer tea,coffee or cocoa?

Cocoa all the way.

91) Who was your first crush?

Tough to admit but it was my best friend.

92) Do you say "Zee" or "Zed" to describe the letter Z?

Depends on the language I'm speaking at the moment, "Zee" for English and "Zed" for Malay.

93) What is your most essential appliance?

My phone.

94) What type of music do you like?
Ballad, pop and pop rock.

95) Have you already thought about your babies names?
Yes, actually. Hahahahahaha.

96) How many pillows do you sleep with?


97) How much do you tend to swear in public?
Depends with who I was at the moment. I swear under my breath if I am alone, use the work "fuck" a lot when I'm with my sister and with my friends I just curse in Malay so yep, pretty much a lot.

98) What do you wear to bed?

Track pants and overly-sized T-shirts.

99) Do you have to wear glasses?
I do.

100) Whats your favourite fruit?

Nenas. Just the other day I told my mom to belikan nenas and I ate them all by myself. Satu mangkuk, 10 minit.

14 April 2014


Assalamualaikum ~

Something feels different. Too different. I don't know. Maybe I've expected too much from the last week of the end of the second semester. I expected us to go on another trip together, release our stress together, have good fun and forget all the stupid shit that had happened between us. I expected a birthday to run perfectly but no, it was just another normal night for us. Heck, it wasn't normal at all. Scratch that. It didn't go like it usually does when we are all at one table. There were no horrifically funny laughter from anyone. Nobody went their crazy usual self. It was hambar.

Hambar as fuck.

Excuse my French. I don't know. Maybe I should lower my expectations and just remind myself that everybody else will do just fine without each other, every single day. Because they have people to talk to and they feel just fine being at home.

There was a dinner though. But I was never a people person and I think I never will be. It happens to me all the time. I can't spend a day or night with too many people surrounding me. It bothers me because I just end up getting so exhausted at the very end and all I think about is to just climb on my bed and get a good night sleep.

It went fine though, it wasn't trouble at all and I had the last chance to train those boys again for the Black & White dance which I love doing so much. I know I may look pushy and bossy but if I don't guide them in this dance, who would do it? I have such affection for them and I just can't give up on them. I just love seeing them having fun together.

We lost a member but gained two more. We're kinda bonding well with the others. But when it comes to trying to force the whole batch to become united like the lecturers picture us to be, sometimes I think they are asking too much. You can't force affection, you can't force people to break out their group to form a bigger one when the smaller group itself isn't really working out.

It takes time and it takes much much more effort. It's not easy.

And most of all, I expected everyone to be like the old days, like last semester when we went apart and every night, we text each other and everyone would respond, sending each other funny or scary photos, telling about unsolved boyfriends and scandal problems, about home-made-Subway-like-burrito-and-or-bread, moist chocolate cupcakes, about going into the kitchen in the middle of the night to make orange juice, having troll face battles and just spending the night apart together through our phones.

I miss everything. I'm sorry. Maybe I'm the only one who feels this way. I should stop being so attached and sentimental I guess.

Three more semesters and we're gonna graduate and really live apart.

I love you guys.

04 April 2014


*cough cough* Assalamualaikum ~ *cough cough*

It's been almost a month since I last updated. The urge to write memang ada tapi persoalannya topik yang sesuai takde. Then sekarang dah jadi bertimpa-timpa so terpaksa cover sebelum datang kisah birthday lagi satu tambah pulak dengan dinner batch Part 2 next week.

I shall start by saying that my three-paper-exams dah start. Tapi gap kitorang panjang-panjang walaupun hanya tiga paper. Biasalah budak AD.

Had our exam the other day dekat Dewan Taming Sari memandangkan code subject diambil oleh majoriti Part 2 satu UiTM. Pishang nak menjawab, study pun ntah ke mana dengan busy gila pasal final project Illustration bagai. Lepas exam terus keluar lepas tu takde sekor pun cakap pasal paper CTU tu, instead sume balik siapkan storybook la, pergi printing la.

Duit jalan macam air. Dekat bulan ni je aku rasa dah RM150 mama bagi aku, semata-mata sebab final project.

Nak dijadikan cerita, kitorang macam stuck sangat dekat Lendu ni. Nak balik tak berbaloi-baloi sebab nanti nak kena datang balik. So berlakulah unplanned incident such as late night badminton sesh.

Mula-mula tu Mira yang ajak the girls main badminton waktu petang. Kebetulan Rayyan dengan Qayyim datang nak hantar kerja storybook dekat aku then diorang pun join sekali.

Malam esoknya tak puas hati main ajaklah semua datang. Walaupun maghrib tu hujan tapi diorang datang jugak walaupun lewat. Main sampai berpeluh bagai lepas tu duduk lepak sampai midnight membebel pasal hape tah.

Serabut. Gila serabut. Dekat dua bulan aku mengadap kerja ni. Dekat dua bulan aku non-stop pergi studio waktu malam. Dekat dua bulan aku mengadap muka Qayyim tiap-tiap hari dan malam. Marker render sampai kering, watercolor paper sampai tak cukup-cukup. In the end, this all paid off, at least it did to me.

Printing final and mock up dah cecah RM100. Tu pun cover pakai duit Qayyim. Belajar grafik ni ada padah hebatnya. Tapi pengalaman yang kitorang dapat rasanya nak tukar ganti dengan wang ringgit tak termampu nak bayarnya. 

Bersyukur dapat partner yang satu kepala walaupun dia suka ngelat. Geram sebenarnya ngan Qayyim sebab I'd have to admit aku banyak buat kerja jugak dari dia. Haha. But aku dah cakap pun awal-awal yang aku suka conquer kerja so dia pun setuju je. Tapi untung dapat partner kuat melawak macam dia. Kalau aku rasa nak marah pun terus tak jadi sebab ada je benda kelakar yang akan dia buat hari-hari.

Aku takde masalah kalau next time aku kena partner up dengan dia lagi. I'd be glad lagipun. He doesn't create much trouble. 

Everyone is so committed to this project. Seronok sangat lepak studio tiap-tiap hari dan malam lepas tu in the end tengok hasil kerja masing-masing yang hebat belaka. Walaupun penat tak terkata dan cost untuk semua kerja ni mampu buat air mata meleleh, tapi aku puas hati. Sangat puas hati.

Lagi-lagi kalau jenis-jenis project macam ni menyebabkan kitorang jadi rapat dengan lecturer. Sebab jumpa all the time. Madam Nik baik gila. Serious, she's so cool. Siap ajak kitorang makan sekali bagai. Let's not forget a big thanks to Xtreme Line printing shop dekat Intekma. Awesome. Gila awesome. Diorang provide a good space to edit our works, tempat rehat and printing yang sangat-sangat berkualiti. Thanks to Abang Fendi and his wife yang sanggup bukak kedai sampai satu dua pagi melayankan kerenah budak AD dari semua part. 

Two months of hard work and this happened. We put this under Qeedy (Qayyim+Needy) Productions due to the fact that it's a children's storybook and it sound like 'kiddy'. Illustration mostly done by me, coloring by the both of us, digital editing by Qayyim and assembled by me with a little help from him.

This was a success I can't deny. I love this book too much. But I love the original illustration more, I can't deny. Unfortunately and fortunately, I can't keep my artwork due to the fact that my lecturer will be putting it up in an Innnovation Competition yang kitorang sendiri tak berapa nak tau pasal benda ni tapi kitorang just biarkan lecturer yang handle. Lagipun dah nak habis sem.

The assessment wasn't that bad, assessed by Sir Radin tapi kitorang sendiri quite lost with words which mainly jarang berlaku to me. Entahlah, maybe sebab group work, so masing-masing tak berapa nak go into deep pasal artwork sendiri. But it was good. Biasalah, dah dua-dua ekor jenis penyegan tang formal speeches. But Alhamdulillah, we went pass this.

Well, this is by far the most successful pop-up dalam storybook kitorang yang buat Madam Nik terpikat dengan buku ni. Tak habis-habis dia suruh post gambar, nak suruh tunjuk kat orang hahahaha. Pop-ups were mainly thought of by me tapi direalisasikan by Qayyim because he has the brain to understand the mechanisms. 

What I love the most about this stroybook that I made is that the little girl in the middle is actually me. Or better yet, my alter ego. I always see myself as a little toddler mainly because aku anak bongsu and to be able to give her life just makes me really happy.

Trying hard to be united. These are the faces of our whole graphic students for my batch with our beloved lectures.

So, that's it. The very last assessment of the second and meaningful semester. Although the picture above is of the tagging used during Photographic assessment, we used this same tagging design for every assessment of this semester. So, it's kinda really special to collect these and see the last of it.

A complete set of the Eminerds. Oh, by the way, we've created a YouTube account under the name Eminent Art to promote our businesses (well, this part hasn't started yet) but I've put up a few videos that we made in the past, documenting our unusual daily life. Do watch it if you'd like. You'd understand better why my blog posts are mostly about them and why I'm loving my life at this moment.